Just Smile...

This is just my reminder for today, and the rest of the week.

Who knows....maybe it will inspire many....

Moving Forward....

It's been a looooong, hard, and draining last two weeks, but am finally seeing "some' hope at the end of the looooong tunnel that I have yet to travel.

I am thankful for the love and support of my friends, family and my beautiful daughter; and more than anything...I am thankful that she is back in my life, and just in the knick of time.

It is true. Sometimes we're hurting so much that we can't see that God is guiding us in the right direction when he closes doors to us, because he always opens others and it just takes getting through the tears sometimes to open our eyes and see those doors he has opened before us, and then we must pray for the courage and strength to walk through them.

There is still a long, hard path to travel with my son and his "first stages" of addiction, as well as raising the girls. I have learned that I can't "keep" Chris, or my son, from doing what they will do, but have to accept that I am powerless. So, my focus will remain on Jacob and the girls, for now.

So thanks for all your support, hope and prayers.

Love to all!

Raindrops Are Fallin on My Head

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin' seems to fit
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

So I just did me some talkin' to the sun
And I said I didn't like the way he got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

But there's one thing I know
The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

Serenity....

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next.

Amen.

Children and How They Change and Shape our Lives

When I was a little girl all I wanted was to grow up, get married, have kids and be a mom. The wonder and the fantasy of it all was so awe-inspiring to me. Not that I had much of a role model in my mom, but in my Nannie and my Aunt Patty. I wanted so much to be like them.

And now here I am. I have two wonderful children, whom I love with all my heart and soul and would die for today. And I also have wonderful step-children (for lack of a better word), whom I raise and love with all my heart and whom there is nothing I wouldn't do anything in my power for.

But what do you do when one of your beloved children turns their back on all that you've taught and tried to instill in them?

Bottom line....my son was arrested for buying drugs at school yesterday and as bad as that is, the worst part is that he could've died from an overdose and I would have been clueless.

Everything happens for a reason? Yes, I sincerely believe that. If he hadn't of passed out yesterday from the rush of the drug and gotten caught, he might very well have ended up dead. Now I learn that he has been using a variety of very hard, addictive drugs.

Maybe by refusing to learn and understand more about drugs, I have enabled my children to pull the wool over my eyes. And for that I can never forgive myself. It's not enough to know that they are bad, but also to know WHY they are bad and how each generation is experimenting and using them.

Now I'm dealing with moving past...he's experimenting with them, to he's abusing them, and now have to find out if he's actually addicted. As if one addict in my life is not enough.


I know one thing...I have failed my son thus far, but will NOT fail him any further in this fight.

So, hug your wonderful kids and always know who they are hanging out with (I only "thought" I knew), and what they're doing when they're "hanging" with their friends. Also, know what drugs are out there being used and abused by children. Each generation is different. Can you believe that Ambien is what my son bought and used yesterday? A sleep aid. Of all things....

Does this make him a bad kid? Hell no....but hopefully it will be what it needs to be, a life lesson that we all learn from....Jacob, me, Doug, Chris....everyone in my life.

Did he want more of my attention? Doesn't matter, cause now he's gotten it. Someone helped me to see that yesterday my son still needs me and for that there is not enough thanks in the world. Thank GOD he is still here TO need me.

I am here and I am listening....